Tag Archives: depression

Insomnia, Part 12,864

Holy crap I’ve crashed so hard this time that I feel debilitated by it – it’s affecting everything. Is it the sugar, the time of year, the lack of family, a vitamin deficiency, early menopause – WTF? I can’t sleep … Continue reading

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Impossibly wrecked

I know a lot of people are like me – living paycheck to paycheck, with nothing to fall back on in case of seriously illness or injury. Luckily my housing situation is wonderful and amazing, but I could theoretically get … Continue reading

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Meet me halfway

25,085 words and I’m behind on the word count but still halfway there; NaNoWriMo 2018 is kicking my ass in the best possible way. What a glorious distraction from the tragedies and heartbreak of everyday life, and from the blood, … Continue reading

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7000 words

My ex-fiance used to¬† mock me for claiming to be a writer, but not ever writing. He didn’t understand and I never wanted to explain, even if I’d had the words back then. Even now I struggle, still have those … Continue reading

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Mangy guardian angel

The veil is supposedly thin at this time of year, and perhaps that’s why my dreams have been so strange and intense lately. Not bad or scary, just active, and emotionally intense. I wake up exhausted but kind of refreshed, … Continue reading

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Trephining

The leaves are turning into the deep jewel tones of autumn and you still aren’t here. Reading my psychology text book reminded me of why that is. According to a clinical diagnosis, I’m bipolar. Like really bipolar. Also according to … Continue reading

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Out of the darkness walk

I signed up for the Out of the Darkness walk this year. When I struggle to get out of bed, when all seems lost, hopeless, agonizingly painful in a completely isolated kind of way and I think I can’t bear … Continue reading

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Retro happy

Time for a musical interlude, and yes after reading terrible news and seeing sad things, it’s time for some cheesy retro happy music. SOTD In A Letter to You – Eddy Raven Hold My Hand – Hootie and the Blowfish … Continue reading

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Trail running

Scrubbing dirt and gravel out of wounds was not how I meant to spend vacation time. A little run through some beautiful Vermont woods seemed like a great idea to reduce stress. We all know that exercise hugely helps to … Continue reading

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This is why people don’t tell

Look at the news; it’s full of powerful people tearing this woman down, ripping apart her life. She’s getting death threats. No one wants to report sexual abuse, because it’s always hell for the victim, and the perpetrator(s) rarely have … Continue reading

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